Thursday, January 26, 2012

neng oh neng

i have been doing a lot of thinking lately. things are happening faster than my cpu could process. and of course, despite the logic, tiba2 akan menjadi neng yatimah. sukalah drama2 sendiri kan. hehe

a few points that i have come about:

1. nikmat mempunyai seorang ibu tak dapat digambarkan dengan kata2. see, tulis ni pun nak neng juga. tah hape2. betullah orang kata, a mother is irreplaceable. ok, memang ada, mak tiri dan kategori mak lain yang baik. tapi mak kandung yang baik, kita mesti akan sayang nak mampos sampai masa kecik2 aku rasa kalau nak mati, nak mati dengan mak.

2. referring to the first point, what more when you yourself has become a mother. memang betul orang kata (orang kata lagi), anak2 susah nak faham kasih sayang mak bapak selagi mereka sendiri tak jadi mak bapak. so anak2ku, despite my jeritan sebenar dan batin, im trying to convey that only Allah knows how much i love all of you. i pray that you will love me, and be proud to have me as your mak kandung forever.

3. this is to reinforce myself, setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. one day, i will be looking back at what i have done today, and say to myself, bersyukur aku buat decision tu. yes, we plan, but ultimately, Allah is the best planner. sometimes we do not know why we do the things we do. so, harung je lah. that is life. kalau tak cuba, tak tahu. tawakkal jek la.

tu je la at the mo, kang tulis lagi.